You know that harsh moment when you realize how clouded your judgment has become and all of a sudden the cloud has been lifted. Well, that moment has just come into my life. I would love to lie and say OMG what a relief but really I feel like an ass. I have been sick the past few days and quite bed ridden. Obviously, sickness makes you feel very sorry for yourself. The world continues on and you get to lay in bed day after day watching the world zip by. The quote by Seneca “while we are postponing, life speeds by” always rings through my head. Of course, you are completely dilapidated so, the quote rings true for a second but you do feel like you have so many things to but just can’t. Today through my cloud of a sweet mixture of medicines I actually saw clearer for once. It hit me like a pile of knives and all I get to see is the blood dripping down from them with the numbing effect of a massive injury and all. Today, I realized how jealous of someone I am. This whole time I have been battling feelings over this guy from the last post. People have put a lot of ideas in my head with their own silly thoughts and ideas on my relationship (more like an agreement). I have been going back and forth with the idea of like and love, that today I actually came across the word hate. All of this harsh revelation via Facebook messages with my mate back home in Florida. This is what ensued:
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